When I was a toddler, I wanted you to hurry up so I could do some things on my own like swim in the big pool and ride a bike. When I was in grade school, I wanted you to speed up so I could drive a car and become even more independent. When I was in high school, I wanted you to pass quickly so I could get out of the house, be treated like an adult all while being "on my own" at college. (When I was still dependent on my folks). Then, after college is when I wanted you to slow down and maybe even stop for awhile. The fear of finally becoming the adult I always wanted to be all those years ago was staring me in the face and I wasn't digging it! I will find a way to make you pass slower.
Well, you won — sorta! How I got from an infant to 53 years young is a whirlwind in my mind. I have such wonderful memories as well as heartbreaks of a life well lived. You, Time, may be passing quickly, but I now know that I do have the power to slow you down a bit. I can live my life like I am the child I used to be. I am and will continue to be a freak of nature who loves to laugh, make other people laugh, and find my inner child each day. I will live for every second and moment of every day — not weeks, months, years — but treasure what you, Time, give me each day.
I have seen what you do, not all so bad. While I had to live through the role reversal of taking care of my parents and watching them pass from this earth, I have watched my children grow and have the same thoughts as I did through their journeys of becoming young adults. Throughout my parents were still alive within me, helping me guide my children as they guided me. My kids have had the same fears as I did with the reality of "growing up", but I figured it out, and so will they. I have been blessed to have grown with a husband that I love more than he will ever know.
I cherish you in the classroom as well. I will use what you offer to help my students grow in all areas of their lives. I do not want to regret wasting one moment of learning and developing alongside my students. You will not be a limitation, but a resource to make positive impacts and let my students know their lives and their Time (you) matter.
So Time, I know that you will continue to tick by quickly, but I vow to truly enjoy every second I have. Age is just a number that I will kick in the rear! I may be growing older, but I am not growing up! I pray that humans find a way to stop you, Time, at least some point each day, and live in the moment, for the moment, and reflect on a life full of blessings, treasures, gifts, and even the struggles that make them stronger. Then, use you (Time) to make their lives and this world better and brighter. Then, we all win! We found a way to use time to our advantage.
Lee Ann (Large Marge)
- LEE ANN RAIKES, a kid trapped in an adult body, living life out loud, while never giving up hope for peace in the world. She can be reached by emailing firstname.lastname@example.org.